You can always start again. Clean out your social media. Create a new account for your new taste in music. Study or work in a new city. Start socialising with new people. Choose a new signature scent and style and purge the outdated parts of yourself. If you don’t like where you’re at, but you don’t know what to do about it - try starting again.
Fat and beauty can coexist. “You would be beautiful if you lost a bit of weight” and “you still have a pretty face” are not compliments. You are beautiful now and your whole being is pretty. Your soul is alight. You are radiant.
surround yourself with positive, ambitious people